Was I abused as a child, or un-diagnosed Aspbergers? I have always had trouble looking people in the eye for all sorts of reasons, I've never liked the idea of being around a crowd, and I'm not sure if it was from being abused or if I have Aspergers.

I wouldn't say you're suffering from Asperger's syndrome necessarily, but more because you had some family troubles during your childhood. In this video, this person states 10 different signs of having Asperger's syndrome, so you may learn something here.

Also, for #9, it may seem to relate to your situation the most, but it doesn't specifically mention about having trouble looking into the eyes of another person and/or crowd. However, I'd still say that you're not suffering from Asperger's.

You see, when a child gets exposed to parental fighting or some sort of violence for a certain lengthy time frame within their home, it can severely impact them psychologically.

For instance, a child exposed to constant bad influence by their parents will act the same way in the future. The reason this happens is because the child looks up to their parents, and if all they're doing is inflicting child abuse, the child will think that that's how life is supposed to be, and that that's what you do to show love to your child.

Signs of this happening can be what you told us - that you have a bit of struggle maintaining eye contact and that you're not a crowd-person. That's completely OK; I understand that.

I've had a similar problem, just a little bit different. If more than 1 person were to look at me, I'd get the urge to laugh and look away to try to stop laughing. But that laughing was actually a sign that I wasn't comfortable maintaining eye contact as well. It was intimidating, to say the least.

If you want to talk about it, send me a message through here. I know how it feels having that kind of a problem. Who knows? I may be able to suggest something that will actually greatly benefit you in dealing with this situation.