Dear Ancient One,
No, not a sense of apprehension, not now...
For me, the watershed of disillusionment came April 1995, when Timothy McVeigh bombed the Federal Building in Oklahoma City... Until then, I truly believed It.Could.Never.Happen.Here.
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What I feel now is more a sense of determination that I am going to live my life to the full, uncompromised by murderous bullies.